I dreamt that I tried killing someone yesterday.
I was trying to silence that girl and I felt my fingers around her throat. I could feel her gasping for air as I climbed over her and gripped my fingers even tighter. But I think because I've got small hands, I wasn't able to grasp tight enough for her to die.
The dream felt so real. The reason for trying to kill her was because I couldn't kill her and I was frustrated, so I decided to strangle her instead.
I then resorted to kidnapping her with my accomplices. We tied her up and hid her in someone else's home. We tied her up in raffia strings, who in the right mind would tie someone up with raffia strings. A single hadoken is all it takes to break those twigs. We tied her up, stuffed her somewhere and refused to feed her until she begged.
When I woke up, I felt so frightened. While I'm thinking what the fuck have I eaten in the day to make me dream of something so horrible like that, the feeling of wrapping your fingers around someone's throat is as if I've done it before. I could feel the lump, the esophagus. It freaked the fucking shit lights out of me.
I don't know what this dream is supposed to be. If this is supposed to show me that this is something I'll do in the future, I'm quite fucked. This is scary.
It's not as if what I've dreamt never came true before. I have had premonitions of my late grandfather passing away before (only, in the dream, I couldn't see the face because I was blocked by my mom) at different periods of my life, I've seen things I shouldn't have, had deja vu countless of times until I just treat it as if it's my umpteenth time taking a bus.
I hope it's just one of the times where you had too much bubble tea, carbs, sweets, Snapple, nicotine in the afternoon and your brain gets a little bit too high from all the calories consumed that it goes on a highway trip to Michael Jackson's Neverland and comes up with all sort of fucked up visions in your head and making you sit up early in the morning wondering where the hell did all those nonsense come from.
Holy shit. I'm scared to sleep now. But I'm so fucking tired I want to.
