Maaaaan.. What a lazy Sunday afternoon, eh?

Yesterday was quite a swell day for me since my aunt, cousins and I hopped over to Orchard's Swensens to have our late supper. Needless to say, I felt quite out of the place because everyone were so prettily dressed over there but we were there in our normal clothes. (Well, at least I had my funky 'I used to fit' teeshirt to comfort me ;D)

So anyway, supper went pretty marvelous since we were sitting down eating our ice cream and fries reminiscing about the past. All the silly squabbles we had.

There was once I remember, when we were at Genting , my cousin and Ben bought this crazy looking mask just to scare the shit out of people. Using that, we went around the hotel scaring the fuck out of guests living in the hotel. Needless to say, it was really really amusing to have people scuttling back to their rooms as we approached them fearful that we might grab their shopping bags and rip it to pieces, and how they screamed as we stood right infront of the lift door when it opened.

Until, someone called the security and we got chased back into our rooms. Poooh, spoil sports!

So yeah, we were just sitting there, talking about all the silly moments we had and that made me quite sad. I'm turning 17 this year and damn, how my life has just flown past by me without me even knowing it.

It seems just last year when I just started out Sec 3, with the crazy class full of nonconformists, screaming in defiance just for the sake of making teachers go mad. Well, okay, not exactly ALL were that cheeky but I was one of them, making full use of the school fees my parents paid to screw teachers' minds up.

And of course, all the times we debated and shooed away those junior councilors because we weren't supposed to be in class. We simply just locked up the door even though they were constantly knocking on the doors to get us out.

Right now, I'm just moving on with poly life although sometimes I get put down because I'm in a 'rejects' school and I deserve somewhere better. And sometimes, I do wonder if I'm really going to graduate RP learning anything at all. Full of doubts and skepticism.




There's so many things on my mind currently. I'm just thinking about what has been said about me yesterday. I really wonder if she's really loving me for who I am, or because of how I look. I'm happy with the way I look.

Why would she say such cutting remarks about me? You mean to say that those figures that appear on the scale matters more than your girl's happiness? Snapping back at you repeatedly makes you say even more cruel phrases I never once thought you would say.

So what is the figure you want to see now? I'll work towards that if that really makes you happy. You want a 49? I'll give it to you.

I'm already a 18.1 but if having a 16.75 makes you flutter with delightfulness, watch me, I'll do just that.



Just watch as the numbers go down.